jfc tumblr. how fucking stupid can you get.
bitching about people using new and unique styles for their posts?
complaining about header and footer images?
are you fucking kidding me.
god. i hate this fucking website sometimes. bitch if someone’s fucking their dog and they post about that.
but post formatting. seriously. are you goddamn fucking shitting me.
i’m going to become an alcoholic because of tumblr i fucking swear to the powers that might be.
i don’t want (
i want you on your knees, c h o k i n g on your own blood
i want my name on your lips, begging:
—————- forgive me, forgive me, forgive me
do not tell me you are sorry — i will show you ’ sorry ‘.
close your eyes,
imagine they are holding you.
will you ever find the words again?
i want to write relationships that are complicated.
i want to write the on-again-off-again relationships. i want the screaming matches and the cancelled dates and the hurt feelings and the second guesses and second chances.
i want to write people who completely shake up each other’s daily routine and flip their entire world on its axis. i want them to drive each other crazy and question why they bother sticking around and then remember the way their partner laughs or see them in a moment of vulnerability that tells them 'this is is why i stay. this is why i love you.'
i want to write relationships with struggles. with class differences and financial divide. two people who are so completely different they somehow complete each other. i want the jealousy and the feelings of inadequacy that goes with it.
i want to write people who aren’t afraid to be honest with their partner. who aren’t afraid to say 'yeah you're being an asshole' followed by 'but i still love you, you idiot.'
i want the first time they see their partner cry and the morning after their first intimate night when everything feels so right.
i want people who get so used to one another that they stop going the extra mile. i want the ‘you don’t make the effort because you already have me’ argument.
i want relationships that challenge each other to be better people and make each other question their beliefs and moral compass.
but most of all, i want to write relationships that are real. that make you feel something. i want to go on the emotional rollercoaster right along with them.
that’s what i want.